U may not feel it right now,

but believe me..

no matter haw hard it is u feel at that moment

it will eventually pass

n then u will think

"silly of me to think that my life was meaningless at that time"

U may think that i wouldn't understand how u feel right now...

n you are right, i have no idea what ur going thru now...

i dun have to..

coz all i have to know is that i care for u

and that u have to hold on tight so that ppl like me and ur family will not have to worry

dun be afraid to lean on people

dun think of ur self as a burden but a weight that we are all willing to carry...

maybe in the future

i may need to lean on u too...

so be strong...

n i said cry once in awhile

not every night!!!

know that there are still ppl who care...

ignore those shitty bastards that dun give two hoots

U still have me..hehe...

Muack!!

XoXo

Catherine

A little update on my CNY~~

This is the eve of CNY...

the reunion dinner...

too bad Syamimi didn't make it on time..

so, here is the usual..

As we are no ordinary Chinese family, the food serve are very different from other family..

As all of us are baba and nyonya, there MUST be sambal belanca on the table..

my favorite pom teh...

and acha~~

I think i have some pic some where..

if i can find it, i'll update it on the next post ya...

so, here is some pic~

Vy long table~

The next day...

The big family photos!!!

All the grand children...

All the girls...

all the guyz...

my lovely cousins~~

The brothers..

haha..

seriously...

he doesn't look malay at all....

Can't believe i just came back from Melaka...

I went out with the whole bunch of cousins again this year...

To think back the last time we hang out was a year ago...

Question:

What do u get if u get a bunch of guys together to watch a girls movie at midnite??

Answer:

They come out with ideas like sneaking beers into the cinema...(yes, even if one of them is a doctor)

...This show....

If u ask me...

this show was just so so...i wouldn't say that it's really nice..

some of the effects are not really good..

Story line kind of rubbish...

but it's a movie for a good laugh...

it's something like a Harry Porter movie except i like this better..

lol

The main actor is o much better looking then Daniel Radcliff!!!

Even before the movie started, Andrea started taking bottles of Hoegaarden out from the bag..

haha...

i can smell alcohol around me...

i wonder the people around me notice...hmm....

so, after the movie we went for a drink...

Well, it was my first time being in a gay bar...

lots of 1st time happen there that nite...hahah...

but sorry,

I'm not some1 who kiss and tell...

but i can say that i really had fun that nite...

seeing that "they" had to sacrifice to get bottomless beer....

a day before i went back to my kampung,

i went out wif miss Joanne...

lol

my 1st nite outing with her...

i like this pic..

lol, the girl on the far end not important...

wakakkakakak

i know i vy bad, but lucky she dun read my blog de~~

Sorry i bang ur car

To whom it may concern,

I'm sooo sorry i bang your car...
I wanted to leave a note like this..
my sincere apologies....

Everything is a mess right now in my life..

It's the beginning of an end...

maybe it's for the best...

i really don't know...

some times it's just too painful to think about it...

before this,

i didn't know

by seeing him

watching him

hearing him

thinking of him

even being with him

would hurt so much...

i guess in life anything can happen...

Like what my dad told me,

u have to experience it to understand...

Didn't know that it would hurt so badly...
some times is as though i can't breath...
i thought it would be easy for us to be together...
maybe it's my fault, maybe it's not...
i don't know what's right and what's wrong any more..
for now, I'm just trying my best to understand
and to try to get through my daily life...
it seems like forever since I've seen u..
but even if ur in front of me, i would still miss u..
it's that hard for me...

i don't want to be your burden,
before we were together, we were so happy..
what have change since then...
to see u happy,
would be my most valuable sight...
I love u...